Have you ever had one of those dreams where you are standing naked in front of a crowd of people? You are shocked, embarrassed, and filled with fear. That is how I feel starting a blog. Don’t get me wrong, I do feel excited, but when writing about your life I feel exposed. It takes a lot of guts to post about your life online (good or bad) for everyone to read. Maybe it is that part of me that feels like I am being judged for what I do and say and even though I know that it shouldn’t matter what others think…it does to me, but then that is why I am on this life journey. I admire all those people that I watch on YouTube and Instagram I can honestly say that every one that I watch has been an inspiration to me and has given me a stepping stone for my own journey. Everyone in my life (even those that I don’t take to now) has changed my life and has made an impact.
So here is the start of my own journey
I have been on this journey to improve my health for a long time, but I wasn’t always doing it right and most of the time I didn’t have the energy (motivation) to do the things that would make improvements. In the last two years, my life has changed drastically and now I feel like it is not even my own life I’m living. So here I am! Going to change my life for the better by living every day intentionally.
Just over two years ago, I finally quit smoking. This was one of the hardest things that I ever had to do in my life. I was a smoker for 28 years, starting when I was in my pre-teens. I tried quitting smoke one billion times…or at least it felt like that. Finally, the last time was the last time!! There were times I felt like I could claw my own eyes out if someone would give me a cigarette, but throughout it all, I still managed to stay smoke-free for 898 days.
Many people would say that if I could quit smoking I should be able to do anything… well, that is what I thought too. When they say nicotine is addictive they are right because here I am 898 days later and still find myself wanting to go out in the freezing cold to light up a smoke with snot hanging from my nose (those that smoke outside can feel me right now). Knowing that I can quit smoking only gives me hope that I can build healthy habits for my life. Has anyone else ever had difficulty building new habits? I always thought it would be easier for me to introduce new things in my life, but it seems to be just as hard ~sigh~
But this is my new journey… I will be spending the rest of my life intentionally living. My plans are to be healthy and happy! Baby steps, baby steps, baby steps. Here are a few things that I will be embracing in my life:
- Losing weight – I will be changing my diet to a low carb diet and hopefully be eating a cleaner. My starting weight is 167lb and I am aiming to get down to 130lb. I am using my starting weight from this moment, but I have lost weight in the last 12 months. I was 195lbs in April 2017, I lost this weight by removing grains and mostly sugar, and working 2 jobs 7 days a week. Almost 20lbs weight loss, but I was extremely burnt out.
- Build an exercise routine – at this moment, I am not someone that likes to exercise. I want to start doing some kind of stretching yoga and mild weight lifting before I head into anything else. I did a lot of walking over the summer, but now it is winter and I live in Canada…enough said. I do get 10 000 steps a day at my job so I’ll take that as exercising right now.
- Living with less – I am in the process of going through my home and removing items that I do not need. Living with less will give me more time to do the things that I enjoy.
- Law of attraction – Using the law of attraction to manifest my dreams.
- Relationships – This will be a difficult one because I’ve always kept myself guarded. There seem to be fewer and fewer relationships in my life at moment, so this is something that has to change.
- Helping people – I’ve always wanted a career in helping people. I am not really sure what that looks like at the moment but I do want something that brings values to other people.